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Arwen Galen
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« on: April 19, 2006, 12:04:18 PM »

When we forgive evil we do not excuse it, we do not tolerate it, we do not smother it. We look the evil full in the face, call it what it is, let its horror shock and stun and enrage us, and only then do we forgive it - Lewis B. Smedes

The wind whipped up in the loch and the whitecaps appeared on the growing waves of dark water. The old man wrapped himself tighter in the blanket and held fast to the fishing pole. Despite the storm approaching he hoped for just one more bite. He was shivering harder as a small child went out to the dock to retrieve the old man from the bad weather before it struck.

"Grampa come back in, the wind is too cold for you", the little girl in the blue dress pulled at the hand of the old man, nudging him until he moved towards the shore and the fire in the hearth of the small keep up on the hill. As the door opened an unnatural blast of wind pushed the two into the room and just as abruptly the door slammed behind them.

The two stood dumb as the tall Lotharian stood up from the rocking chair by the fire. Most of the Lotharians stayed to their own lands but occasionally desperados struck the smaller villages. As the boots echoed off the stone floor, the old man peered around the darkened room. The only other sound was the whimpering of the old woman tied up in the corner near the hearth, the broad hand of dark-skinned marauder pulling tightly on the woman's grey hair.

The soft voice of the leader was not unusual in his request, "Tell me old man, have you seen that flying ship again? They say you used to call to it and it came." The red eyes glittered as the sweet words of the dark soul floated to the old man's one good ear. "You wouldn't want to have anything happen to your wife while we go and find out….would we?"

As a punctuation point to the leader's words, the proselyte yanked the hair of the old woman, the yelp of pain echoing in the small room. The little girl in the blue dress whimpered as she hung tightly onto her grandfather's leg. A slow resounding lick across the lips in the darkened corner led to a snarl from the leader. "We don't eat the younglings fool! Not while that monster is still around we'd be hunted down for sure!"

Grabbing the old man by the shoulders the child is pried off the leg and tossed in the corner near the grandmother. Crying loudly the child clutched her grandmother and they both screamed in unison as the old man was pushed out into the driving rain.
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What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us; what we have done for others is immortal.- Albert Pike

She sat at the diner counter, watching the customers entering from the large brown door, watching them from the mirror above the pie tray and the huge coffee urns. Most came in, ordered food, ate then left, but a few of them sat in the booths far away from the door. Most of those ordered large bowls of ice cream and large mugs of ice water almost in an effort to freeze their inner souls.

She passed the time playing chess against some of the customers and testing her new powers of movement. The pieces would travel the chessboard on their own as she used to her mind to move them.

Funny it felt like she just got here but it had been about 25 years she figured roughly. The clock hands turned the sun rose and fell but still she was here. It was her hell to spend the rest of eternity in a diner with a short order cook named Rico and a waitress named Maxine.

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The dark heavy clouds were full of rain that soaked the two figures at the end of the dock. Angry at the lack of cooperation, the old man was pushed to his knees on the wooden dock. The tall raider drew a sword and speared the man in the back just as the lightning struck the water turning it into a dark indigo glow. The old man's body was shoved into the cold waters and the leader ran back to the mounts, grabbed the reins and flung himself on the saddle and rode off, leaving the two henchmen in the hovel, unaware of the their leader's desertion. 

The unnatural sounds coming from the loch as he shoved the body off the dock were enough to scare even the hardiest Lotharian and he didn't want to hang around to find out what made them. He had heard the stories of the dismembered bodies in the glen after taking on the humans and he wasn't taking his chances.

What the two accomplices found in the morning was enough to cure them from ever straying from their village again. The leader's body was pushed into a nearby tree with his chest sliced open as if in an effort to perform a sloppy autopsy. Only this was with the leader's own sword. The blood that had dried on the forehead was very readable.

You will all stand in the sun and melt into the wind unless you stay out of my domain.

They never did find the body of the old man, but near the dock a jasmine bush grew and flowered for the next few summers and the Lotharians never set foot in the area again.

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The diner rattled as if someone had grabbed the building itself and shook it violently for minute. While attempting to hold on for dear life, most of the people were spilled across the shiny linoleum floor. The people in the darkened booths remained sitting, rather effortlessly despite the shaking.

As the building calmed down the redhead was still sitting at the counter, hanging onto her apple pie, managing not to spill one crumb again.

"They got another one didn't they Maxine?" she smirked as Maxine made her way over to the whiteboard and put down another red mark in the column. The waitress turned around from the board as the old man entered the diner looking somewhat lost.

"Another customer eh Maxine?" she nodded to herself as she used the force more easily now and the sugar container slide across the shiny table to her hand, "Park yourself old man…care for a cup of coffee?"

The man was wet but as he walked across to the counter his clothes magically dried out, astounded at the sound of common spoken to him, "I think I need that right now….tell me kind lady where am I?"

She spread her arms wide and with a broad smile proclaimed "Welcome to our little corner of the universe Purgatory for some, Hell for others, and for those that did things to upset the higher planes, a place to contemplate your belly button for a few eons. Plus they make good pie"

Rico sang out from the kitchen, "Don't help the newbie you were one of them once as well sweetheart, save-the-universe, damn-yourself-in-the-effort types." A plate of eggs and ham slide out for a customer and Rico continued, "It's that space between your ears that needs adjustin. Simple fact babe…you gotta learn how to use that noggin of yurs for more than putting that cloak hood up over yur neck and moving the chess pieces around to entertain the customers."

The redhead at the counter turned to the cloak across the back of the chair next to her, smoothing the dark cloth, her hazel eyes still saddened as she remembered how she was gifted the cloak "Rico it was a gift from someone who should just stay in the shadows. He was a nice old man who did nothing to no one."

The old man was slightly bewildered at the give and take of the conversation but picked up the fork as Maxine slide a piece of lemon meringue pie over to the now-seated old man. "Here, I'll put it on your tab."

Time past in the diner, people came in and out, the ones in the darkened booths left eventually and soon it was only Rico, Maxine, the newcomer and the redhead. She was finishing up the last of a piece of cherry pie, when the old man came back from looking out the window for the upteenth time since he got there.

"Why are the windows frosted over young lady?"

She caught Maxine's smile then took a long slow breath; "This is going to take some time old man sit down."

Looking up to Maxine, "Got any tea left?" The waitress went to fetch cups all around as she started to explain, "Here is the diner."

Using the force the sugar container slide across the counter startling the old man slightly. "Here, see?" as she poured the sugar in a circle in the middle of the counter.

"Where you came from is here" pouring another smaller circle on one side and continuing on, "There is god, note with a small g dear." She wrote out the word god at the top of the big circle.

"Trust me there are different names for it as well. Afterworld, arcadia, atmosphere, azure, beyond, bliss, Canaan, dreamland, ecstasy, Elysium, empyrean, enchantment, eternal home, eternal rest, eternity, fairyland, felicity, firmament, glory, great unknown, happiness, harmony, heights, hereafter, immortality, kingdom, kingdom come, life everlasting, next world, nirvana, paradise, the pearly gates, promised land, rapture, Shangri-La, sky, the blue, transport, upstairs, utopia, wonderland, Zion… you pick"

"And here is the opposite of it" As she poured out the sugar she focused and now brown sugar drained out into a small circle on the opposite side again. Abaddon, abyss, affliction, agony, anguish, blue blazes, bottomless pit, difficulty, emergency, everlasting fire, grave, Hades, hell-fire, hot place, infernal regions, inferno, limbo, lower world, martyrdom, misery, nether world, nightmare, ordeal, pandemonium, perdition, pit, suffering, torment, trial, underworld and my favorite underverse. I read about that from some graphic novel."

"To each they seem as simple route, you start here at your origin, you go to the diner and you leave and end up with god or hell. Big problem here, everyone defines hell differently. Remember that guy a couple of years ago Maxine, sworn he was going to heaven with 9 vessel virgins as a reward for blowing up those innocents, boy did he have a surprise waiting for him when he opened the exit door. Think he is still out walking in that sand storm."

Rico piped up "Yup poor boy tries to get in every so often, the door won't let him back in."

"It all depends on what you gave up to get here. Most give up family, friends, their existence as a whole but some take more than they are allotted. They keep them here for awhile until they decide to go through the door…that is if the door will allow them through to their next level. Then there are those folks in the back booths." The redhead pointed out the small booths with the definite stench of burnt flesh coming off the benches.

"Nasty folks, never pay their bills, but they always come just before the scum come in. This I suppose is a sign that you ain't one of them. So tell me old man, what is your story, why did the gods send you here?"

As the old man started telling his life story, in another part of infinity the Pinnacle class Hunter's lights started to flicker on. Its slumber beneath the dark waters had been speculated to be the death knell of the technomage contained within the dark ship.

Long thought to be dead and gone by the Lotharians the ship routed the precious battery life to the engines. As the sun rose over the cold waters, the glow of the ship turned the water to shade of indigo blue, frightening all the residents in the depths of the loch to scatter away from the metal hull.


Experience is that marvelous thing that enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again.

~to be continued~
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« Reply #1 on: April 23, 2006, 05:34:22 PM »

Yet another soul on the edge of dispair, but with hope hidden.

(Nice, Barb.  I'm waiting for more)


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« Reply #2 on: May 04, 2006, 09:27:04 AM »

Good to begin well, better to end well. – English Proverb

Two apple crumb pies and at least one gallon of tea later the simple truth about how the diner worked came to the bleary-eyed old man. The redhead tucked him into one of the cots behind the counter with a teddy bear named Elizabeth and curled up in one of the back booths wrapping herself up in the black cape. Watching the swirls of sand in the hourglass and starting to nod off, she wondered what happened to the rest of the worlds she left behind.

The night visions continued as they had for the past quarter century. They showed up every so often with no rhyme or reason but lately had a darker tone as the dreams and the nightmares were interchangeable in their maddening swirls.

The cube she was curled up in was rotating wildly down in a dark hole. The door abruptly opened and she tumbled out into a metal tube, sharp blades jabbing out in odd angles every so often. They tore away at her flesh and left her body raw and bleeding. She fell down the tube into the cold dark water of the loch. It took her breath away and as she broke the surface she was sputtering and attempting to not swallow the brine.

Do you want to know how it began, and where? In such a simple manner, as you will see...but simplicities, as we all understand, can so rapidly become complex worlds.

The timeline of her breakdown to the point of her resurrection was one that most knew very little about. She remembered the ache of the loss of Daru'ul, the rush of the attained power of destruction of the planet of the Great Eye, the fury of an ancient who played her into doing his bidding. There were also the errors in judgement after that turned her into a wanted soul by the Drakh and their torturous ways.

Then there was the Nexus and the evil that was contained within. The beacon was a resting-place where her madness enveloped her and then she grew through it to ascend to a higher plain. Along the way she learned that trust was earned and that some would have given their souls for such trusts.

There was a long list of mistakes and should-ofs and could-ofs that led her down the road to the diner that made her spirit fluctuate.  The spikes in the tube were a reminder of each and every mistake that she kept running over. A pain that she was to relive in her mind until…..as Rico once said everything had a reason here in the diner. You just needed to think long enough on what it was so that you could see the Way.

She woke with a snort, the smell of burnt flesh too close to her nostrils. Looking across the table, she stared into the black eyes of a lizard, its breathing labored and heavy. She knew trouble was on it's way…in the form of a reject of a soul and she was the one to show the way to the door for all, even the unforgiven had a path to follow.

And for the fact that she was the oldest inhabitant other than Rico and Maxine, was a reason why they turned to her. A source of knowledge some called her, and she laughed every time as she could imagine the look on the faces of the jedis in the Nexus and their confusion if she ever made it back there.

Made it back..that gave her some thought. Why would one want to go back to that such pain for her heart and mind. Somehow staying here was simpler and that was one reason why she didn't push the point of leaving.

Sometimes she wished the door would swing open and someone was calling her name on the other side. As she had learned some heard choirs singing, others heard the voice of a loved one, others heard a low deep rumble and off they went. But despite the knowledge that she was gaining with using the force, it was as if she was being left behind as a punishment for past sins. For a long while she was so angry, the stars themselves shook from her rage. But she had developed over time the ability to be as calm as that deep pool of water that she saw when she meditated.

It took time to fathom the entity that she had become, the redhead that was…predicable at least by some of their standards. She had been confused and angry at them, as if they were responsible for her internal happiness, for her joy, for her ability to look through the window and see the sunset and gaze at the colors.  But she had learned how she was responsible for her Way and nothing could prevent her from following her path.

Those who have faith in the truth and are determined on the path, they will find awakening.

She turned expectantly as the door glowed white and disappeared and a shadow of a human stood in the doorway.

Arwen swung around and started her normal speech…."Hello and welcome to our version of pergat…." Her voice trailed off as the soul walked into the diner and she was speechless.

~~~to be continued (maybe at SG)~~~

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« Reply #3 on: May 26, 2006, 09:31:45 AM »

Coming up to the counter was about the last one she would ever expect to see here.... Standing a touch slimmer and definitely a bit older, the black-shirted man in the dark fatigue pants and black boots stopped to take in the surrounding diner.

Looking right at her, the apparition in the flesh spoke to her. "You do not belong here and you know this... And only you can decide if you are going to come back through that door and deal with what you left behind, all those unresolved issues inflicted upon you by the outside and within. Issues that do not need to be... restricting."

"And when you decide you will do such... I will be there for you as I was way back when you first came to me." A slight smile. "Maybe this time, head strong Padawan, you will listen properly to what you were told and not bend the instruction." With that, he turned and headed back out the door.

A laugh erupted from the Technomage as the door swung shut. Wiping the tears away, "Well I didn't bloody well expect that eh? Maxine, you seen things like this before…what do you call them…the Ghost of Christmas past?"

Maxine stopped and stared at the door, "The problem is you are here because you are needed. When you are no longer needed, you leave. Simply put some of Them think that any interruption in the natural flow is just……not natural at all. That's why he got to leave as soon as he got here. You know that everything here has a natural balance. This is why you wear grey. Strange though he is stuck in a time loop that even he has no idea he is clearly mired in."

She turned to pick up an order from Rico who chimed in, "What he said was interesting…padawan? Hon you ain't been no padawan for about 20 years….guy is loopy." He shook his head and went back to the sputtering grill full of food.

Arwen smiled and grabbed her cup of coffee, "Well it has been a long time…strange I wasn't expecting him…more along the lines of expecting the entire Jedi nation….but I guess beggars can't be choosers."

She stopped for a moment and then continued, "He seemed to have thought that the years have left me in a state of stagnation, I have learned, trust me I have learned, but he assumed that I am the pitiful child that ran away in anger. That child was left behind in storage….if he wants retrieve her try Sanctuary."

Arwen smiled to herself, it was a nice shiny day after all, and a piece of the puzzle had dropped into place.

"Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes" -Carl Jung







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« Reply #4 on: May 26, 2006, 11:33:41 AM »

The thunder echoed outside as the rain beat down on the diner's roof. A spot where the roof had always leaked continued with a slow even drip into the metal pot on the counter. It took almost 24 hours for the pot to fill  so Arwen judged the time by how many times the pot was emptied, which was 9 when she lost count.

The old man had learned what to do when some came in and as the passage of time grew he was understanding the program more and more. "Hell he even can give a good welcoming speech!", Arwen thought to herself. "Need to drag him along for PR once she headed back to Sanctuary….."

Arwen's eyes narrowed, wondering where that thought slipped in. Looking in the mirror she could see in the background of her reflection, slowly fading into view, the wooden pews and the candles flickering in the eventide worship. She could even smell the incense in the chapel.

Shaking her head for a moment, and suddenly realizing the lack of sound of the dripping water, Arwen noticed the sun shining through the frosted windows. It was a low level deep red…what was it they would say on the water planet – Red sky in the morning Sailor take warning, Red sky at night – Sailor's delight.

And the sunset was a crimson ball as it curled around the angles of the frosted glass turning the mottled ceiling into hues of red, orange and yellow all flickering on the ceiling. The shades slid down the wall and focused on a single point on the tip of a metal staff. It had been left by the door eons ago and had never been reclaimed.

The colors focused on the top of the staff and condensed into a bright spark turning the room into a light so bright as to blind the normal soul. Arwen looked up from counter and as she stepped towards the light, the staff hovered for a moment and then flew to Arwen's open hand.

As she grasped the pike, the stone at the top blazed a deep rich carnelian. Wrapping her hands around the staff her implants sung and the staff answered. Feeling the weight of time on her shoulders she grabbed her cloak and curled up in a corner, falling into a deep restful sleep.

Maxine looked at Rico and smiled for the sentient being knew that it was time….time for Technomage to go out back into the place she called home. The old man at the counter nodded and pulled his sweater around his frail frame and asked for another piece of pie.

"As it was and it always shall be", Maxine intoned as Arwen Galen faded from the diner floor, the shadow of a familiar piece of knotwork on Sanctuary's floor glowing slightly and fading away with the cloaked sleeping technomage on the floor clutching her staff.

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The dusk faded slowly into darkness as the knotwork in Sanctuary glowed for a brief moment. The Technomage Galahad known as Arwen Galen faded into view in a deep sleep wrapped in a black velvet cloak clutching a staff with a carnelian stone on the top that glowed.

Arwen Galen
I will do all I must to judge others no harsher than I judge myself...and hope they survive it.


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« Reply #5 on: June 02, 2006, 05:51:34 PM »

yippy, She's back.


Nice introspective tale.


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